A new day of a new week. Depressing start though. Just when I thought 2020 couldn’t get any worse it goes and shows it sure can! 😞

Sad news puts everything in contrast! You stop complaining like a bitch and start facing life for what it is. It’s cruel, it’s unforgiving, it’s hard. Nature gives, but it also takes. And when it comes to take it might do so in a very surprising and sudden cruel way. You just can’t prepare for this kind of stuff. You’ll always have to suffer through it first to know what it feels like. It sucks.

I’d like to say “life goes on”, but I can’t. Not at this precise moment. These days are for suffering, and it’s only going to get worse before it gets better.

I’ll accept this load and bear with the weight, for we humans are beasts of burden. Such is our fate from the moment we are born.

Woke up at 8AM and kinda felt rested and ready to go, but decided to lay down again because there was a part of me deep inside telling me something was off despite looking ok. So I went back to sleep until 1PM! 😹

Got up, this time feeling 100% rested. Prepared food, ate spaghetti, grabbed some coffee and went straight back to the laptop to do some work, but mostly did just some administrative tasks.

Anyways, got a lot of stuff to catch up with and later this afternoon hang out with my friends at the usual hangout bar in Monkey Factory.

Let’s Rock & Roll!

Woke up kind of early considering I went to sleep at almost 5 AM. 😹

Felt a bit tired though, so took my time getting up, but once I did I just went straight to business. Did the laundry and got a couple of hours of work done. Went shopping for some food, prepared a “noice” meal and went to take a break watching The Legend Of Korra on Amazon Prime, because they finally made the second season available!

Then went back to working and getting some productive hours in until my father arrived to pay me a visit. We talked for a couple of hours over some tea, which kinda felt good. Afterwards went back to work and complete a couple of tasks before heading to bed.

See you guys tomorrow for more!

Almost halfway through the week. Got quite the amount of work done. Being productive and liking it.

Had a conversation with my father yesterday during one of my late night breaks and we talked about Armenia and what we can do to help it. He told me he’s been working on a plan of action type of document to send it as a proposal to a prominent Armenian politic so as to get everybody on the same page and move in the same direction. It’s a good start I think so I offered my full support for helping in any way possible.

In regards to what I want to do, I still want to go back to Armenia. My future is there. Perhaps not right this instant, but it’s a question of a few weeks/months until I’m back. Until then gotta patiently prepare for the trip back. Gotta empty out this house, save money, finish my projects, close my Autónomo account, learn Armenian, etc.

There’s plenty to do, so let’s not lose any time! 💪

Again, woke up late to a couple of projects waiting to be worked on. First thing I thought about was why am I sleeping without a care in the world with everything that’s going on right now? I’m getting distracted too much. I should find my perfect routine to maximize productivity.

I’ve got too many thoughts going through my mind at the same time. Gotta untangle that.

Got perfect peace and blood boiling at the same time. I think I finally understand what being at peace really means. No need to deny nor ignore any part of myself. Accept and use it. Use the Rage! Use the Love! Use it all!

Waking up after a long-ass sleep to another day, a new week. Again, good weather with an almost clear sky. I notice that because for almost 6 years every time I came out of the house I was greeted by a gray depression-inducing sky, so I’ve come to learn to appreciate good weather that cheers me up.

The lands where I was born has 4 natural seasons (spring, summer, autumn, winter) therefor my body is adapted to such climates. In the Netherlands, where we lived for almost 6 years, had 3 seasons, them being spring for 2 months, autumn for most of the year lasting 6-7 months, and winter lasting for 3-4 months. There were hot springs from time to time, but not anything you could call a good warm summer. In comparison Spain has longer warmer periods. Spain has 2-3 months of spring, 6-7 months of summer and 4-5 months of autumn. If you want to see winter in Spain then you’ve got to go to the mountains.

Anyways, long story short, feeling good and motivated to continue working and make every day count towards the bigger goals.

Sunday, funday, very sunny day, as forecasted! 🌞

Woke up feeling good. Slept much longer than needed though, but still felt good. At least woke up with plenty of energies to take on this new day, which I decided would be very chill and laid back kind of day.

I started doing some chores around the house, but then decided to leave everything on pause and just go for a walk at the beach with a friend, so I hit up my good friend Yasir and he replied right back with a resounding “Yes”! And so, 50min later, we were both at the La Barceloneta beach enjoying a sunny day.
We took many pictures, videos and created amazing insta-stories. It was a sunny day with a clear sky, but lots of wind and big waves in the water, so naturally there were lots of surfers using this moment to enjoy to their hearts content.

We sat down at Bacoa and enjoyed a hamburger with patatas bravas. Then we continued our walk until Hotel W Barcelona at the other end of the whole beach, at which point it already got dark. The sun went down and up came the big beautiful round and reddish moon to continue shining upon us! 🌕

Afterwards we took a bus and went to the Sagrada Familia meetup at Inter Tapa, where we met some friends and sat down for some socializing. After an hour I had to get up and go see a friend at Gracia for a brief moment. Remember I mentioned that I needed to have a “talk” with a friend? Well, it didn’t happen yesterday, but instead it did today.

It went as I expected. I calmly explained what I went for to talk about. She listened, agreed with some parts, and disagreed with the last point moving forward, which kind of makes sense when you have into account what I said. Understandable. But still, it had to be said, and it needs to be like that moving forward. No more wasting my time nor other people’s time.

Moving forward we’ve got to do everything the right way.

Woke up at 12:30PM!!! 🤯
It was a very long, but needed, sleep! Woke up feeling very rested and ready to take on Saturday by getting some work done on personal projects! 💪

Today’s theme is getting back to base. Meaning, after doing some reflecting I came to the conclusion that certain personal matters, like a specific relation to a friend, should be addressed in a proper and honest way instead of beating around the bush and keeping unrealistic expectations and hopes. I’d much prefer to talk in person with her, but I’ll do a call if needed. The important thing is we have a honest conversation so we can move on with our lives the right way.

Regarding the personal projects, there’s a little bit of work to do, but the potential of it working out are great, to say the least! Looking forward to getting this thing off the ground and making some serious Fuck-You-Money! 😹

Having said that, time to get to work!

Woke up a little bit later than planned, but still quite early considering it’s me we’re talking about! 😹

When I woke up I felt a tiny bit tired, but after getting up and walking around I could feel my body was rested enough. I still think I’ll have to take a little break during midday to recover my energies a bit. 💪

We’re already at Friday again! There is one very important project to finish which I’ll get to right after finishing this journal entry and grocery shopping!

A bit too much of a rainy gray day for my liking though. It reminds me a lot of the time we used to live in the Netherlands. Most of the times we stepped out of our house to go school we were greeted by a gray sky and some sheep staring right into our eyes. Those Texel sheep have some creepy demon-like faces! 😹

Woke up a bit later than planned, around 8:45AM. Was planning on waking up around 7AM and getting right back to working so I could later on go for the Bubble Tea with my date at Sagrada Familia. Instead got barely one hour of work in and then grabbed all my stuff and bounced off to the center.

Got the Bubble Tea at the only place open at 10:15AM and went to Sagrada Familia to meet with my date. We hugged, talked for a bit and drank-ate our Bubble Teas (this drink is AMAZIN’! 🤩). Afterwards she had to enter her restaurant to do her shift so we said our goodbyes and I went on with my scooter to my favorite #COFFICE Oassis Natural Cooking, which is wonderfully situated at the beginning of the famous Passeig De Gràcia avenue.

I had a Oassis Lemonade, ate the 6 Quesos pizza, drank a capuchino and continued my work until now. Later on will meet with my friends at a Meetup like we used to! Looking forward to it! 😁